I am a woman who is on a journey through grief. My husband of 29 years passed away October 31, 2012 from a brief battle with cancer. Mike was diagnosed July 2012. We opened our home and our hearts to our families and friends who were willing to walk with us and care for us. It was hard. My faith in God was sorely tested. When Mike was diagnosed, I found this verse:
“Turn me away from wanting any other plan than yours. Revive my heart toward you. Reassure me that your promises are for me, for I trust and revere you.” Psalm 119:37,38 (TLB)
Everything moved so fast. Surgery, treatment, complications, trips to Boston, trips to the Emergency Room, more complications, more bad news. But in the midst of it all, I had an underlying peace that made no logical sense. My love, admiration, and respect for Mike grew as I watched him face his daily challenges with courage and kindness towards others. It was extremely hard knowing I could do nothing to stop the progression of this disease. And yet I clung to God and the promises He gave me. “I will never leave you or forsake you”. “I am with you always”. “I love you with an everlasting love.” Jesus faced incredible physical and emotional sufferings. He cried when his friend, Lazarus, died. He experienced the pain of loss. He understands. He has shown me time and again that He is with me. He continues to revive my heart when I feel weak and broken. He continues to reassure me that yes, He is true to His promises for me, that He has a plan for my life – for welfare….a future…a hope.
Grief is so personal. And yet we can learn so much from each other as we journey through it. My hope is that you will join me on this journey and we will learn together. One step at a time.
If you are interested, you may read about Mike’s journey through his CaringBridge site: http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/mikeg